Thursday, 25 February 2016

Mental Health

I am of the opinion that there are certain, very burdensome topics that should be discussed by everyone, this is one of them. More than fashion, more than the kardashians, more than rihanna, more than sports.

We live in a world overwhelmed by horrendous social issues, and everyone who turns a blind eye to them and goes about their day is a tool. Yes, I am a judgemental asshole, I know. But my inability to comprehend the mass' oblivion, which in turn leaves me fuming 24/7, has been a permanent part of my character. If you my friend are capable of switching it off, that anger embedded in your soul towards the less intellectually fortunate fellow human beings- do let me know how to do it. One can't love man without hating most of the creatures who pretend to bear his name.

 E.g. DJ Trump and his fanatic supporters

Sorry, whenever I write I let go of any structure, I just let my thoughts flow. Its therapeutic. Try it! 
Back to the topic now (sort of)- Mental Health. I am against nuclear weapons; I am against all weapons. I think weapons are good only if they are kept in storage by responsible people and only used in case of  an aggressive alien invasion. Not against other human beings, and not against animals. Currently in the UK there is a debate for the renewal of certain nuclear arsenal, something that will cost ordinary people living in the country a total of some millions, billions; basically an unimaginable amount of money. That is on account of a hypothetical threat by....to be honest I am not really sure, terrorist? russia? muslims? the asian kim? (aaaaaaaaaand that's a potential red flag for western friendly spying services! "omg Jim, there is a post on the internet that mentions terrorist, russia, muslims AND nuclear weapons at the same time. That is definitely a threat to national security."). I admit I went overboard here, but if you've read the stories of people who have been incarcerated for saying things on the internet you will know what I mean! 
My point is, there is a massive need for attention (subsequently money) to be put into mental health services. Instead, we are about to pay a lot of money into protecting a piece of land full of people who are suffering, slowly becoming shells of themselves, trapped in a mental hell accessing a scarce adequate help IF THEY ARE LUCKY.


When I began working within the mental health services I began to see the issue outside the hospital walls. I began to see more and more people quietly suffering everywhere. So what is the most logical way to go about this situation? Spend ridiculous amount of money on weapons that are capable of causing horrendous harm in order to protect their physical health from a hypothetical threat OR do the right thing? Is it not more logical to heal a broken, suffering mind in the hopes of having more of those working together to find a better solution to suffering of the rest of the world?
You tell me.



PS. FYI UK has more than 200 warheads in its nuclear arsenal. FYI 2, I am currently working with 4 people in a desperate need of mental health attention. Just me, in a world of more than 7 billion people, am working with 4 people who are in a constant everyday hell. People living in a 1st world country that provides free health care. People who have been waiting 6+ months to see a professional who can address their needs. People, who I can say for certainty, are living in a state of constant fear. Just try and imagine. Now tell me about the pretty little things you bough yesterday.


Wednesday, 10 February 2016

#Blacklivesmatter

Just when I was about to write a post about my fashionable clothes and make up and stuff I got the radical idea of writing about something that actually matters. I've been thinking about a #Blacklivesmatter post for a while, not really sure what more I could bring to the debate until I watched Beyonce's new video Formation. (NB its been a while now I've noticed Blogger does not allow me to post certain youtube videos?! so here is a link, watch it its worth it!)

                          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrCHz1gwzTo




     Let's start from the beginning. The land of the free (USA) where 25% of the world's population is imprisoned. I mean...really? Is there anyone left on this earth that still believes the land of the free and the American dream exist?

The Land of the Free- whoever told you that is your enemy

The American Dream- because you have to be asleep to believe it

     No! I am not senselessly hating on America, 95% of my heroes (dead or alive) are American. It seems as though the worst off a place is- the more it produces great minds. (On another note it seems like the citizens of New Hampshire are not half as bad- a good portion of them voted for Bernie! So there is evidence to suggest that some Americans are still capable of independent thought.) ANYWAY, it is a statistical fact that the majority of America's incarcerated population is African American even though they are still statistically a minority within the American general population. Another statistical fact: American police has shot more of its citizen (predominately African American) than the rest of the world's police force combined (or Isis and Boko Haram). But hey ho, unless you've lived under a rock or you are the average western-brain washed "kim/kanye product" robot then you wouldn't know those facts, let alone care about them. Nonetheless they are shocking.


     What I am trying to say is that its no secret  America has had a very shameful past (arguably present as well) in the way it has treated its citizen. My naive nature has led me to believe, as a child, that since Dr. Martin Luther King, Rosa Parks and Malcolm X...gosh even since Obama was elected for president- things have improved. Rights for ALL human beings exist, everyone is equal, nae segregation. But that's not the case. It seems there still a long way to go before the 21st century Selma march happens again.





     Everyone with any authority or influence should step up; I know Beyonce and Jay Z have said a few things about #Blacklivesmatter; and I am so proud of Queen B for using Black Panther outfits for her back dancers (little but at least something) however a powerful video and very disappointing lyrics about a Givenchy dress are still far from the iconic sound of the 60s black revolutionary anthems- Young, Gifted and Black and Backlash Blues. Although her Formation video has very powerful visual message which encapsulates the current African American culture its lyrics are literally breaking my heart. I just hope Beyonce, and all other American black artists for that matter, realise the importance of the issue, realise the power they have due to American citizens infatuation with show business.



     Everyone, without exception, should be talking about this. This radical social change needs to have its generational Nina Simone voice, I sincerely hope that Queen B is capable of standing up tall on this one! We the people are simple but not stupid. Give us a 21st century I have a dream speech, give us a Backlash Blues marching song but you have to inspire our hearts and souls. We need idols and ideas to get our hearts pumping in order to move those legs and lips in order to break the silence.     

Nina Simone- Young, Gifted and Black



Nina Simone- Backlash Blues

Monday, 8 February 2016

Birthday Post


     Today I am 24 so here is a little poem by one of my heroes- Charlie Chaplin. A poem that finally began to resonate personally and not just merely be a beautiful poem.

As I began to Love Myself

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody if I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.
As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worrying about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know “THAT IS LIFE”!

     PS: As I began to love myself I finally decided to give myself credit for how strong and capable I am. From today I won't doubt myself any longer.  

Friday, 5 February 2016

Getting to know yourself


   
     Finding yourself. One of the stupidest things I've heard but guilty of perhaps saying once or twice in my lifetime. I have noticed people saying things without really knowing what they mean like I am trying to find myself. The thing is that you are already there. The correct way of saying it: I am trying to get to know myself or I want to learn about myself. Now, who you are, is a completely different topic but the fact is- you are there, somewhere. A lot of people point to their heads, thinking they are inside their skulls. I personally don't think that's where I AM located. That's clearly where my brain is but I don't think I am brain. Unfortunately (or fortunately) I believe that my brain is just a tool ,similar to my fingers but more sophisticated, that helps me navigate myself through this life. Yes, it stores my memories, and as a firm believer of social learning theory I am positive it plays a big role in my personality and the way I make choices, however I don't feel it is me. Yes, I also believe it generates consciousness (or in other words: this strange feeling of realisation that you are realising stuff) but again- it is not me. When I close my eyes and try and feel ME- my heart skips. That's where I am- in my heart. And by me I don't mean my name, my history and my likes.

     I seem to be in a constant onion peeling process where I have began to see everything as an onion that has layers. Years ago I used to think ME was- my likes, my personality and my memories however as time went by and I have looked more deeply (peeled a layer) I saw that those things were influenced (or learnt) by my parents, environment etc. So, was that really ME? Now I am in the process of peeling yet another layer of myself but I won't bore the audience any further. I am asking you to, or more like challenging you, to go to bed one night and begin to peel the layers. I will give you a hint- think about the moments where you were truly happy. Those specific moments where the layers have disappeared and your true self was the only one present. Not your name, not your friends, not your hobbies, not your favourite band/book etc, just you.

     I suspect that all the recently "self-acknowledgement" themed posts are influenced by 1) I have spend a substantial amount of time questioning stuff, especially myself and 2) I started working in a mental health hospital and as I psychologist in training am all about that psyche. I also believe that one of the greatest gifts we are given by being conscious is not to merely be a biological consumer machines but to have the opportunity to get to know ourselves. I just so passionately believe that there is more to life than what I am told. Am I the only one left?