Really?

It is hard to describe in words what void inside the heart and soul feels like. Someone that I used to know told me that I need to see a professional. It is funny because they didn't say it as a joke. They were being honest. And I told them that I don't need to, because I know that everyone feels that void. Everyone is depressed or anxious as fuck, some are bright enough to see it and they end up being called miserable or hypocrites. But you know what, everyone feels like shit they just chose to bury it deep down under excessive amounts of alcohol or binge clothes shopping. Or whatever.

I will tell you something my friend, everyone pretends they are OK. But they all lie. I am at a point where I am avoiding answering the small chat question "How are you?" or "How was you weekend?". Fuck that shit. You know it deep down in your heart it fucking sucks.

Maybe I am just growing up, but fuck me adult life sucks. We all run around trying to pretend its all happy. And social media does not help at all. We all feel lost, we all have no idea what's going on. Some people say "Just be positive" n shit, but you know what, they are so mesmorised by the images on the screen, by their little ideas that getting a new car, house and shoes will make the void go away. But it won't, nothing can make it better, because its the soul that's rotting.

Dear friend, I am sorry for the shittiest post ever however emotions and thoughts need to be taken out otherwise you might blow up.

I wasted more than a year of my life with someone who kept telling me I should seek a professional. Who told me I was miserable and it wasn't their fault, they didn't mean to hurt me, they just didn't see the world the way I did. They didn't see its shittiness but they also didn't see its beauty. At the end I realised that what matter the most in this life is finding someone (a partner or a friend or both!) that sees the world as you do. Bonnie had her Clyde, Yokko her John Lennon ... moral of the story: Do not change for anyone but find someone just as crazy as you who loves you for your light inside! And if you are like me and think the world is pure shit - find someone who thinks its even shittier!